By the time I finish school, Cara will be 2 and 1/2, and I will not be able to devote to her, the time she needs, until then. That means, for her first 2 and 1/2 years of life, she will be shipped off, to Nana, Daddy, Aunt Terre, or anyone else that is available to help out, and not be with me.
So, this all stems from when I came home tonight, and the last few weeks, when I have come to see her. She doesn't do her usual squeal. She doesn't cry until I pick her up like she used to. Sure, she smiles, but I can tell, she is not as excited to see me as she used to be. It is sort of like when you first start dating someone. It is butterflies all the time. Then, as you get to know him or her, those feelings fade a little. However, as I was getting her ready for bed, Cephas came into her room, and do you know who got the squeal? Yes, it was him.
So, after she was all snuggled in bed, I came out and told Cephas, "I want to quit school." He asked why and I said, "Because Cara loves you more than me." I tell him about once a week that I want to quit school, and sometimes even more than that, that I want to quit work.
Here we are, Cara and Mama, in the sweater that Aunt Terre bought her. She needs something like that to keep her warm in these cold temperatures we have had. I should say, this was one of my resolutions, to take more pictures of me and her.
And here she is, the star
The weeks that I am working, a lot of times, the only time I see Cara is in the morning, when I get her dressed and ready to go to Nana's house. I took these this morning, to capture her first thing.
I just laugh when I see this one... I had just turned on the light
She found the pacifier and was wanting to go back to sleep
No, really, she was trying to go back to sleep
And this one, classic. She is saying, "Really mom, pictures first thing in the morning?"
2 comments:
Her hair has grown so much, even since Thanksgiving! You are a wonderful mom and please believe me when I say that there is NO ONE Cara loves as much as she loves her mommy!
1. This post made me tear up.
2. I'm beyond impressed with ALL you do. You are amazing. I mean I stay at home and still use jar babyfood!
3. Cara is gorgeous! Leah misses her.
4. You made me want to start a blog.
5. This is Laura by the way!
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